a crush. I could tell there was something different about this guy, something special. Anyone that meets him could tell you that. He is kind, patient, loving, funny, outgoing (even though he says he'd rather spend time by himself at home hehe), he'd take off his shirt for you. I could see Christ in this man. I never thought I would have had any chance of having him part of my life. We started hanging out alot more often in group settings. I got to know him more and started to develop a deeper connection. One day we were going to play racquetball w/ a small group, but it ended up being just us two. That had happened one other time but this particular day was a Sunday. While we were playing we accidently ran into eachother, which sometimes could happen while playing others, but this time our hands kind of ended up half holding eachothers. We just kinda froze there which seemed like forever to me. The butterflies where kicking in high gear. He eventually told me that he kinda liked me and that he has like me for a while. I couldn't believe me ears!!! Wow! I had assumptions that he could maybe like me b/c of some actions that could pass as flirting but I never could truly believed it. That would make me once again that immature high school freshman that I once used to be. I told him that I like him too and he said "Yeah, I could tell". Again, I was shocked, b/c I thought I wasn't being obvious. I tried not to be at least. But maybe all goofy smiles, shaving cream fights, chasing each other around the beach, and other actions kinda gave it away. That crush soon grew into love. I love this man soo much! I feel so blessed that God has put such a wonderful man into my life. And you know that list that I told you about in the beginning? Well, I can honestly say that Brandon makes all the qualifications on that list! Well except for the man in a uniform part. lol..that one was kinda silly anyways. God is good! I wanted the next guy that came around if there were to be a next guy to be The guy; i wasn't going to settle for any guy anymore. I didn't want to break any more hearts along w/ my heart. So I made a list of what I wanted in a husband. I prayed to God about it often; that if He were to bless me w/ a husband that He would have all those qualities on my list and that it would be the next guy I dated. I learned that we can call on God for anything as long as it is according to His will. He wants us to ask him for things; he enjoys delighting himself in us. He says ask and you shall receive, knock and the door shall be open to you. I wonder if God ever just stands there w/ a present and we just don't receive it b/c we don't ask. I guess that happens alot w/ the present of Christ for our salvation...but that's a different topic. to be continued...
